The Troubles of Distance

To all who think that having a long distance relationship is easy.
Nonesense.
It really requires trust above all else, and of course understanding. Especially when you dont talk to each other very often.

Because of this lack of communication, breakdowns are common. No frequent, but common. Sometimes these breakdowns lead to major misunderstandings and in worse cases, hate.

Independence is a quality that comes tied together with a devil may care attitude. If you are affected by the words of people around you, you are not truly independant. Besides your lifestlye being independant, so must your mind be. Your ideas, thoughts, and decisions.
Its already hard for me to communicate with you, now its even harder with this situation. When i need you to understand what im trying to do, you keep your distance. All this doesnt help, yes im supposed to be mature, but hey! Im still human.

Im not here to destroy anything. I want to build it up. You have to know how to do things smartly, not lay everything out on the table. You dont play poker putting all your cards on the table.
For you to win, you have to play smart. No one will get hurt in the end (not talkin bout poker now).
Timing is of the essence, If you dont play the right cards at the right time, Its going to backfire.
It already has in a way.
I just hope it doesnt become worse.
Yes its a risk we have taken, but a calculated risk that you are refusing to calculate right now.

I wish i could sit down with you and explain everything. sigh. I just wish.

Its bad enough i miss you so much, and bad enough that i have step back and allow you to concentrate (the latter of which i know must be done).

Sigh.
Miss you.
REALLY.
joshie.