Stuck halfway between present and the future...

Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you've closed, locked and threw away key to the door behind you, only to find yourself facing a wall in front.
I just wonder, why wasn't this wall told to me before, and not after my help.

It hurts, not so much seeing the wall infront, but learning about it so late.

Not that it keeps me from trying. My determination is unmatched, my heart is set, and my spirit in line. Doesnt matter how good he looks, how big he is...or if he is almost everything i am.

I guess when i return, it will be time.

joshie